Ipswich man said sorry for making 'so many failed attempts' on his life, Suffolk Coroner's Court told
An Ipswich man apologised to his family for making 'so many failed attempts’ on his life, an inquest heard.
Paul Gardiner was found hanged at his home in Old Foundry Road on October 14 by police officers after the supermarket worker’s colleagues raised the alarm, Suffolk Coroner’s Court was told yesterday.
Ambulance crews found Mr Gardiner slumped behind his bedroom door, the court was told, and paramedic Holly Usher pronounced him dead at about 7.30pm.
Police officers searched the house and found a note, left to his family, which said: “I’m sorry I was not strong enough. Sorry it took me so many failed attempts.”
Two days before Mr Gardiner was found, he text his colleagues at the Co-op supermarket and told them he was ‘struggling and couldn’t cope any more’.
The inquest heard he had battled with alcoholism, and toxicology tests by Dr Rebecca Andrews at London’s Imperial College revealed he had 276 microgrammes of ethanol in 100 millilitres of blood.
Nigel Parsley, Suffolk’s senior coroner, said the levels in his system would typically be associated with loss of consciousness, and said the drink drive limit was 80 micrograms and the levels associated with drunkenness were between 100 and 200 micrograms.
In evidence from his sister Emma Barton, the court was told he was at one time a successful personal trainer.
He then moved to Spain, the court was told, and he started to drink and was introduced to drugs. It was around this point he made the first attempt on his life.
Mr Gardiner had been admitted to Wedgewood House, in Bury St Edmunds, and his sister said he “joked he knew how to hang himself in there”.
In her statement she added: “Paul was saying he didn’t want to live past 50 but didn't give a reason why he thought that.”
In May last year the Type Two diabetic was found laying in a park after he had overdosed on insulin. He told nurses he had little recollection of events, but denied overdosing to end his life. He said he had taken it because he had been drinking, and wanted to make sure his blood sugar levels were suitable.
After his overdose, he had engaged with mental health professionals who had said he was ‘future planning’ and was looking forward to getting back to work.
“We know Paul made previous attempts on his life, however Paul’s case is different from some others I have seen,” said Mr Parsley, who added Mr Gardiner was trying to improve himself when hospital staff last spoke to him.
Recording a conclusion of suicide, Mr Parsley the court: “Despite previous attempts it’s one of those cases where it has not been obvious to identify the trigger which caused Paul to take the actions he did just prior to when he was found by his work colleagues.”